Insects are fugggly gross. EWW x infinity okay. i went for lunch today with SooChing, QingHui, Sharlynn, and Sharlynn's friend shuwen. AND she told us a real story that last time in her grandma's village there was a woman washing her clothes or smth at the river. DENNNNNN, a leech went into her body without her knowing! Den her stomach began to grow bigger & her mum thought she was pregnant with some guy. DEN ONE DAY, her stomach was so painful & she went the toilet. den the leeches came out and she DIED from bleeding. like WTHHHHH. her stomach became big becos there were sooooooo many leech babies inside. OMG right. T.T (!!!)
i hate insects/creeepy crawlies!


& today sucks. urgh. in band, after band. i dont know what to say. :( maybe im in the wrong luh. but still . i dont like it when someone scolds me directly/indirectly too harshly k. after i read that ____ msg, i cried k. i also feel stressed, not only you. i tried telling them as well. & they might have reasons in not doing whatever. i dont know what to say alr. i miss ChongXiang & Helena being in band. really.
:(

i went out with my parents today. & i saw smth that almost made me cry. so wth please. luckily i did not. today sucks. sigh. it sucks to feel this way. i just wish i could turn back time . really. i feel so wrong & useless & everything. it's always like this. sometimes i guess not caring too much is good afterall.

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Today i went for sectionals && thanks vannie, alfred, alvin for __________. :D:D:D:D but it's omgggggg difficult. T.T so hard la. heh. & urghhh. im so pissed off about smth. @#$%&* screw youuuuuuu/the thing/whatever. >:O

8moredays. :

Yesterday was darren (from perc) birthday!

SO , HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY DARREN ! :D:D

May you get everything you wish for. (:

i feel so tired these days. ):

maybe i'm not good enough. but it's okay. ha

I got through it, i just never got over it. -

Band bonding day is funnnn. the amazing race(with the help of yx. :D), the dance was fun & funny & nice ! except the drills. hhahaha. i think my group bonded quite well :D i got to know them more. i think our dance was nice ! and we cooperated well tgt! :D i think Qiyu danced well for his group & darren's breakdancing is cooool! yay percussion. ahhaha
&& our group, 9 got 3rd in the end!! yayy.

ShiYun, XiuYi, Me, Mae, Jermine

ChengPang, Alvin, JiaJun, YongQuan

i think im gonna miss band alot :/

//edited//

&i forgot to say smth impt, THANKS TO ALLL WHO ORGANISED&HELPED IN MAKING THIS BONDING DAY POSSIBLE! :D

Band was okay today. :D but the games later were kinda fun! i sucked x1000 on the concentration game thingy :X my group is quite quiet tho. haha. i hope it will be double/triple the fun tmr ! heheeh. i just hope i will stop coughing so much like today. my tummy hurts luh. pfft.
& there's so much homework that's yet to be done ! :(




- will you come home and stop this pain tonight.
stop this pain tonight. @#$%

)): im sooo sick since saturday at wild wild wet can. maybe if i went for band instead, i would not have gotten a fever. i slept like the whole of last evening and the whole of today la. but still cant sleep properly also. ): urghh. i feel like dying alr luh. damn damn damnnn. i think im also not going to school&band tmr. ;( i hope i will be better sooooon. ):

my common test results suck. i dont knoww how. i really x 1000000 want to do well! i will just keep working harder i guess. (: & my life's getting booooring. school, homework, study, sleep. haha! but at least im squeezing in time to read story books. storybooks are yummmy. :// ahahah.

i still think 'not without my sister' book is so F***ing disgusting/gross/inhumane. urgh. and TheFamilyInternational still exsists up to today. like wth. i seriously x 99999 feel sad for the children who are growing up in TheFamilyInternational. they are robbed of their innocence sooooooooo young. sigh. life really isnt fair .

& i agree with yanjie's post on the 'god' thing. i really think that way too. :/ it's so nice talking to her. she can like understnad what im trying to say! & we often think alike on these things. :D

& i'm going wild wild wet tmr! with my mummy's side. lalallala. :]

-what's the defination of right and wrong?

commontest is like over! YAY. but still, have to continue studying next week alr. like wth. & the days are seriously passing by so damn fasttttttttttttttttttttttttt. & im feeling so blah these days . feel so worried , but i dunno whatthehell i worried about. -.- ah.
band resumed today. it was nice seeing my perc again today (: sharon is always so funny. heh. & i was trying to catch vannie's attention by standing beside weijie, but failed. damn. HAHAHA. anyw, i didnt perform in the homecoming thingy as i had tuition. drats. ): later i went to my grandma's house & had steamboat. yummmmmy yummmmmy. :D
OH. i and pamela went out ystd and we ate yummmmmmy food too! we ate at miggles. :] && we bought donuts @ donut factory too. food makes me happppy ! :D:D:D and we had interesting comversations too


i dont wanna do this anymore.it's like a fucking rollercoster.i dont know what to feel anymore.i cant wait to leave here.
ihatethisihatethisihatethis.
why does it have to be this way.