It's amazing how we can think of someone constantly while that someone doesnt cares/thinks about us. Knowing so, yet we still cant hold back our thoughts and love for that person.
Life was so easy and carefree when we were young. Never having to worry about friendship, love & pain. It was just so happy back then. Times when all we did was play & study. The innocence that we had. Whenever it was a bad day, we knew it would all be okay by tomorrow. But now it's different. Now, now the pain lingers. For days, for months and even years.
Why can't life be so carefree & innocent now.
Why?
I don't think i can forgive myself for the past.
It's so hard to move on. Forgetting the wrongs i have done.
Each night i think about it, i cry.
All i can do is cry, knowing i can never change the past.
Never.
I'm so tired of crying and hurting.
`Suicidal behaviour is not always a wish to die but maybe, a mechanism to communicate pain and a cry for help. - eL